A Message to All who I RP with!
Jul. 23rd, 2008 07:25 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
surrendermyselfTo all I RP with or have in the past RPd with...
I, Marissa Shirley, am fallible. I make mistakes, and for that I am sorry because nine times out of ten I am hurting others in the process.
Having said that, to those who RP with me or have in the past...I have in the last 24 hours realized something...I get a bit too overzealous sometimes and that upsets people. Since June 10th though it has gotten progressivly worse because all I have to do is rp and internet because I was laid off and totalled my car. I am not saying that this makes what I have done right, I am not saying that my constant prodding, even when joking around, to post has been acceptable, i am simply saying that its my excuse for what its worth.
As I look back at these things I can see that I have been over pushy with those that I truly adore and I am sorry. The thing with me though is walking on egg shells and holding back to spare my feelings never works, its never going to get you anywhere because then I don't see that I am doing something wrong. What I truly need is everyone who I am upsetting or being too pushy with is to simply say look, marissa, you are pushing it. and when that doesn't work be more forceful. I know that isn't healthy sometimes, but its the best that I have because it is who I am.
The other thing about me is I am not ashamed to tell someone how I feel, and sometimes that also is not good. I see that it hurts people and causes misunderstandings. For example...I may not agree with the way a set or writers on a show have done something, or how the character has turned out because I think its wildly out of character for that person, ie what they did with the end of season three to Bones...(safer example than what the actual talk was about), I could just say that, but sometimes I take it a step too far and I'm sorry. I understand that everyone has a point of view and one of these days I might even be able to accept that not everyone agrees with me...ok I get that now, but I don't like to admit it. Anyway, what I am saying is, please look past my vocalness about tv characters and such and I will try to keep my opinions to myself more often.
Like I said, all I have at this moment in time is RP, the Internet, what work I can get from home (I actually work for a company from home) and television. What this means is I have no way to go out and do things, no entertainment other than what I can find in the four walls of my house and this is not a choice of mine. When I totalled my car my social life became nil! To go out I have to schedual at least three days in advance and count on actually getting out on the fourth day because the one person who can take me anywhere is not entirely reliable. When things fall through, when my plans fail, lets just say I get bored and I find other ways to entertain myself, which most of he time leads to RP.
I am working on not being so pushy, but sometimes I fail. Having said that I say this, I make this promise to everyone who reads this. I will not pester for tags anymore, I will not IM you solely to say hey can you tag please? I will just wait and if and when you tag you tag thats that. Please allow me the chance to show you that this is the new me and the chance to show you that I am not going to mess things up again because to be honest, I cherish each and every one of you.
I also have a new motto, if you have something to say about someone that you don't like..say it to them, I no longer want to hear it. It only leads to misunderstandings and hurt feelings. To those I have unfairly judged without thinking, or taking the time to get to know you...I am sorry. I make this promise to you, I will be a better person. I will not make a judgment based on what others say, I will take the time to actually get to know you for you are most likely an amazing person and I would be stupid to think otherwise. I just want to get along with everyone and not fight for fighting is exhausting and pointless..basically all it does is wear you out and you get nothing from it, much like coke is empty calories and you end up thirsty again in 30 minutes....Sorry, its 7:21 am, I haven't slept and some of my examples may make no sense....what I am saying is, I just want to get along with everyone and please could everyone give me a second chance to show that I am not a pain in the ass, I am actually someone worth knowing.
Thank you
Marissa Jane Shirley aka....well too many damn characters cause muses just don't shut up.
I, Marissa Shirley, am fallible. I make mistakes, and for that I am sorry because nine times out of ten I am hurting others in the process.
Having said that, to those who RP with me or have in the past...I have in the last 24 hours realized something...I get a bit too overzealous sometimes and that upsets people. Since June 10th though it has gotten progressivly worse because all I have to do is rp and internet because I was laid off and totalled my car. I am not saying that this makes what I have done right, I am not saying that my constant prodding, even when joking around, to post has been acceptable, i am simply saying that its my excuse for what its worth.
As I look back at these things I can see that I have been over pushy with those that I truly adore and I am sorry. The thing with me though is walking on egg shells and holding back to spare my feelings never works, its never going to get you anywhere because then I don't see that I am doing something wrong. What I truly need is everyone who I am upsetting or being too pushy with is to simply say look, marissa, you are pushing it. and when that doesn't work be more forceful. I know that isn't healthy sometimes, but its the best that I have because it is who I am.
The other thing about me is I am not ashamed to tell someone how I feel, and sometimes that also is not good. I see that it hurts people and causes misunderstandings. For example...I may not agree with the way a set or writers on a show have done something, or how the character has turned out because I think its wildly out of character for that person, ie what they did with the end of season three to Bones...(safer example than what the actual talk was about), I could just say that, but sometimes I take it a step too far and I'm sorry. I understand that everyone has a point of view and one of these days I might even be able to accept that not everyone agrees with me...ok I get that now, but I don't like to admit it. Anyway, what I am saying is, please look past my vocalness about tv characters and such and I will try to keep my opinions to myself more often.
Like I said, all I have at this moment in time is RP, the Internet, what work I can get from home (I actually work for a company from home) and television. What this means is I have no way to go out and do things, no entertainment other than what I can find in the four walls of my house and this is not a choice of mine. When I totalled my car my social life became nil! To go out I have to schedual at least three days in advance and count on actually getting out on the fourth day because the one person who can take me anywhere is not entirely reliable. When things fall through, when my plans fail, lets just say I get bored and I find other ways to entertain myself, which most of he time leads to RP.
I am working on not being so pushy, but sometimes I fail. Having said that I say this, I make this promise to everyone who reads this. I will not pester for tags anymore, I will not IM you solely to say hey can you tag please? I will just wait and if and when you tag you tag thats that. Please allow me the chance to show you that this is the new me and the chance to show you that I am not going to mess things up again because to be honest, I cherish each and every one of you.
I also have a new motto, if you have something to say about someone that you don't like..say it to them, I no longer want to hear it. It only leads to misunderstandings and hurt feelings. To those I have unfairly judged without thinking, or taking the time to get to know you...I am sorry. I make this promise to you, I will be a better person. I will not make a judgment based on what others say, I will take the time to actually get to know you for you are most likely an amazing person and I would be stupid to think otherwise. I just want to get along with everyone and not fight for fighting is exhausting and pointless..basically all it does is wear you out and you get nothing from it, much like coke is empty calories and you end up thirsty again in 30 minutes....Sorry, its 7:21 am, I haven't slept and some of my examples may make no sense....what I am saying is, I just want to get along with everyone and please could everyone give me a second chance to show that I am not a pain in the ass, I am actually someone worth knowing.
Thank you
Marissa Jane Shirley aka....well too many damn characters cause muses just don't shut up.
